As a hitman when asked if the Borne Ultimatim dude was dead I replied: ” Sure, he was lying face down on the pavement motionless for like a whole 2 seconds, and you can’t get any more dead than that.”

 Jen Carfagno, is my favorite meterologist.

Fred is a nice guy. Some say he has the cleanest anus this side west of the county but I’m never going to confirm this rumor becaue I would rather stay believing that mine is freshest.

“The big bang, brought us all apart” 

” I could be any one from any time, as many times as I wished because it’s more fun not knowing as each one during each time.”

Of course none of this made any difference in my daily life but to know that I would see it all again as many times as I wished it from as many different angles , from as many different eyes as I had wished.   

Soon I will shave the top of my head bald, and grow my own comb-over so that I may bring comb-overs back in style.

Are we good or bad, or both from someone else’s opinion? Is it just bad, or is it just each of us who is thinking we’re better than certain others, but not admitting to it? NO! Right?

Of course we hate thinking we’re bad, or feeling guilty because we have egos, and weaknesses  that everyone around us knows how to use against us….None of them do this to us do they? I could never let anyone use my weaknesses against me to make me think a certain way, could I?

We may all be ready to snap because we’re scared people will think we’re crazy if we do something that makes no sense. Would this mean we’re insecure? Yes. Maybe. No. Lets think about what confidence might really be.

In my opinion confidence is the ability to persuade others to think like you by allowing them to think they’ve come to the same conclusion without you telling them what to think, which builds their egos….Thusly, the ”confident one” would appear correct, and more just than others by making you feel smarter which is the ego booster…Perhaps the cunning ego booster uses special effects to distract you, or a political arguement you feel strongely about because that belief makes you feel smarter, or more sexy .

In my opinion confidence is merely a tool, a “lie- or truth you believe” used to fool others into agreeing because everyone is insecure, and insecurity is weakness. It is bad. How can it be bad? If we’re bad, are we all bad? NOOO! Can’t there be good and bad, can’t we admit that we do most everything because we hate guilt? No..so we must go back to thinking the opposite, but wouldn’t that make us two faced?    

” Bennet, you’re just tearing appart the box, and building another box around it in order to seem smarter, and build your ego, correct? “

Yes, of course (uh oh! – RED ALERT!) . I’m also trying to prove that there is always a way to argue any point. Even the most pure soul on Earth can be battled with his, or her own weaknesses against his, or herself in favor of surrounding majority no matter what the cause. All that’s needed is a majority to back any idea, any socially accepted thought pattern, and that is the correct one accepted by majority with something to gain acceptance amoung others. “ I’m smarter because I know more than you.”- Bullshit! Guilt is used on our selves every day (perhaps) by ourselves, by the ones we love, our friends , family, EVERYONE!

We only trust those that build our egos by fooling us into thinking we’re smarter, better than all the others that just don’t get it….

Wow.

Again. Our egos are built on not facing guilt because guilt is what we deal with all the time too much of already. The guilt that says only the stronge shall survive (strong = biggest most confident ego, with more majority backing him, or her). Guilt knowing we’re not always right, that we’re not  always wrong but that we only do that which gives us something in return to not feel guilt. Something that builds our ego….

“Bennet this is too depressing, and you’re making me feel guilty and not building my ego….”

I know. I’m making you feel guilty. I’m doing it to make you think I’m not trying to boost your ego by implying the opposite, thus making you feel smarter. No. Actually it’s the opposite.

 The truth of everything sucks. Let’s get drunk, and not worry about it. Guilt is a germ. Let’s stop thinking too much because we’ll seem crazy if we do.  No one wants to seem crazy because that’s socially unacceptable, and a clear sign of our weakness for which none of us have, correct ?

We don’t need anyone to agree with us to make it “true” do we? We don’t need friends, family, or loved ones to agree with us, or not all at the same time, do we?…No..that might be crazy, wouldn’t it? That would mean we can’t make up our own minds.

FUCK!, where’s that beer? Joint? Crack? Pill? Food? TV SHOW? WEB PAGE? EGO BOOSTER? …I need something to not think about how crazy I might really feel, and appear to everyone I’ve tried SO DAMMED hard not to..

Damn, all that guilt over covering weaknesses..It’s no wonder we’re all ready to snap at any minute. It’s no wonder we’re ready to beat any person we don’t know that pushes our buttons the wrong way. We’re all guilty of being weak, and doing a fancy dance to cover it up…Let’s not think about guilt that we trust no one but ourselves, and that we’re scared to feel more guilt that we might be wrong unless we can fool ourselves into thinking  we’re right again.

” BENNET !!!  I HATE THIS POST !!! STOP THE JEDI MIND TRICK GUILT TRIPS Head FUCK GAMES, or I will slice you appart with my light sabar ! You dumbass Bennet, trying to make me feel guilty and more paranoid  than I already am, don’t you know I have too much already, how dare you? I hate you now!  You’re just looking for someone to agree with you Bennet because you’re insecure your own dammed self! “

I know. I’m guilty. 

Beer time!

No, I didn’t agree with the way the US went to war but then now that they’re there I want them to do whatever is needed to clear out as many suicide bomber groups as possible. You could use the old cop out and say we shouldn’t be there so let’s not waste time thinking about it, but isn’t that selfish? Wait a minute, I’m not perfect, who ever is?

As for the VT shooter, obviously the deaths were terrible, and horrific but then I’m reminded of how people all over the world die all the time, and never get noticed on national media. Just after the shooting a news reporter asked Franklin Graham (son of Rev. Billy Graham) why did God allow this shooting to take place by which Franklin Graham verbally came to the conclusion that it was the Devil. This is a prime example of why religion is so great. When we don’t know something, all we have to do is throw our hands in the air and say:” It’s the DEBIL!” No need to worry. Dust our hands clean, because the evil devil Satan himself did it. Let’s not take responsibility, because it’s the DEBIL! For any of you not aware of sarcasim, that was some.

 I still think it was a tragedy for both the victims, their families, and the shooter.I think there is something important to be learn, and no it ain’t that video games warp minds. IMO entertainment doesn’t cause mental illness but I think certain people could be attracted to things that feed their egos but not every person with a need to act it out in real life.  Seeing the VT killer’s videos was disturbing, but I think that’s the point most of us could be missing. I believe he was driven by long term depression, and skitsophernia to be the best at mayhem. Why do you think he went lifting weights a month before? So his arms could hold 2 powerful guns up at once. Those guns might have lots of kick back, and could grow tiresome after a few minutes. This man was attempting to reach perfection at destruction, and how his mind got to where it was is perhaps one of the most important lessons we could learn.  I’ve seen the same reaction from most people that have viewed his video clips. It’s like poison for the mind. You don’t want to look at him because you could be scared his craziness might seep into your brain.

I believe it is possible that the brain is like any organ in the body. The brain makes it’s best to attempt to regulate some level of balance. Is it not possible that the brain could be forced by it’s own need to reach balance to produce higher chemicals flows to encourage certain beliefs, or even certain thinking patterns?

I’m no scientist, and I don’t know how the brain works. I’m sure many scientist have mapped out the brain. Unfortunately the people most likely to use this information are drug companies that will most likely create a light bulb pill that doesn’t actually cure because that would kill their business.

Was there ever a time when anyone actually fixed, or cured something completely?  

I’m tired of being made to feel guilty about oil companies polluting the world by which I have absolutely no control over. Is it my fault I drive a car, or is it the fault of dumb inventors that haven’t developed a better means of transportation? I really don’t know.

I’m tired of people trying to make excuses about why I should care about things I have no control over. I’m tired of being yanked backwards then forwards by media, entertainment, and every form of so called art that mostly seems to have one voice; it’s own.

I’m tired of the tit for tat whose better than what because of what. I want to get back to when I was young when I knew science was truly the only way to fix things. Although todays scientists are either lazy, or too busy fighting patents. A fancy new watch or ipod isn’t what I consider new science. That’s just another product. 

Yes sometimes there is a right or wrong, or maybe perhaps a left or right with maybe more reasons to justify the left or right. Each of us is capable of change with ourselves without drugs ,or  reasons dreamed up by others for an agenda that puts more money in their pockets, but is it possible to do for ourselves without guilt?

Is wheeling guilt at one another, the true WMD?

“Heavier-than-air flying machines are impossible.” (Lord Kelvin, president, Royal Society, 1895)“I think there is a world market for maybe five computers.” (Thomas Watson, chairman of IBM, 1943)

“There is no reason for any individual to have a computer in their home.” (Ken Olsen, president, chairman and founder of Digital Equipment Corp., 1977)

“The telephone has too many shortcomings to be seriously considered as a means of communication. The device is inherently of no value to us.” (Western Union internal memo, 1876)

“Airplanes are interesting toys but of no military value.” (Marshal Ferdinand Foch, French commander of Allied forces during the closing months of World War I, 1918)

“The wireless music box has no imaginable commercial value. Who would pay for a message sent to nobody in particular?” (David Sarnoff’s associates, in response to his urgings for investment in radio in the 1920′s)

“Professor Goddard does not know the relation between action and reaction and the need to have something better than a vacuum against which to react. He seems to lack the basic knowledge ladled out daily in high schools.” (New York Times editorial about Robert Goddard’s revolutionary rocket work, 1921)

“Who the hell wants to hear actors talk?” (Harry M. Warner, Warner Brothers, 1927)

“Everything that can be invented has been invented.” (Charles H. Duell, commissioner, US Office of Patents, 1899)

Every tiny atom in each of our bodies is basically numbered equations multiplying continuously as we grow as a species in direct connection to our planet Earth and each other.

Each tiny spec of our spit from our mouths carries DNA (more math equations) information that cross talks with us and our Earth extension which reacts to change (evolve) itself or it’s components as the math changes. Since we are made from this Earth we are part of it just like any part of our bodies are extensions. The Earth and math doesn’t care about emotions.

We can’t kill it. We can blow pieces of it up, but it will survive regardless as a big black rock or as floating dust clouds if it has to.

The Earth will be here long after any of us as it has been before.
Life will continue, or fail but regardless the Earth will be here until the sun explodes, and scatters our atoms across space to recombine life again in a different form.

The dust of us and the Earth will survive.
Perhaps as fuel for another sun. Perhaps as ice particles for comets.
Maybe even as the building blocks for another planet with beings on it like us that think they need to control everything.

Blah. Just a theory. I’m not a scientist.